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Written at Thursday, March 8, 2007 | back to top

我的天空今天有点灰

我的心是个落叶的季节

我不知道如何度过今夜

所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

.:.english translation.:.

my sky is a little grey..my heart feels like a season with falling leaves,i dun know how to live through tis night..all e lights all r burned out..

y muz there be shocks one after another.i know e road'll not be smooth.but i dun know tat it be so tat rough.fear's engulfin me..

y muz u only tell me u may not be able to make it or dp may not be able to make..i do not blame u for bein vp of student council n guitar..it's juz tat i keep me thinkin bout e way u treat legion..i juz feel very pek n sian..u r worse than solomon lah..even tat bit of passion in me is destroyed by u already..i juz cant stand it tat u seem so wat..u like muz always wait for me to go find u then u break to me e bad news or let me know e updated info..is i so hard for u to sms me..or call me..then when i wanna reach u through calling or smsing..i end up talking to myself..

i know tat for our pdm to take up tis yr's acies is going to be difficult esp since u r holding so many posts..n since legion's ur 2nd cca..u may neglect it coz u can be too busy at times..i m juz sian n pek tat u hav tis kind of attitude..

though legion's ur 2nd cca..u may neglect it at times..nvm bout tis fact..coz i did experience it myself when i was handlin both..but legion's organisin an impt thing..ACIES leh!!it's ur legion,xiao jie n moreover,u r e pres..

i hav already neglected interact, prayer n music ministry le n when i told hoho tat i will be neglectin interact,i know she's kinda upset bout it but since she knows how much my religion means to me,she has let me off a bit..

u know wat..if u dun feel like carin bout tis,let me know so tat i can focus my energy on other area,k??..till now i havent got e sec 1s list up for prayer n music ministry..n still owe hoho e cip hrs..

thinkin bout how ur sis pangseh tanya when i was in sec 1..n u r juz repeatin hist again..so wat u will be able to make it in time for acies(as in e mass)..u r not there with me for preparation part..n tat's e crucial part..n tat marikitat..*sigh*..i hav no comments..

last yr de curia from aug till oct..i nv go coz cat class..i wonder if u really got go or not..or u were juz ponning it..i hope nv to know e truth coz i m sure e truth will hurt me even deeper..

it's funny how when we i put more energy on one cca,e other cca seem to be alright..or maybe it's juz alright on e surface..but there r actually a lot of probs tat needs to be seen to tat i juz throw it all e way back to my head n try my best to forget bout it..

sometimes,i really dun know to slack or be chao responsible..or maybe i shld really do a bit when e t'cher chase a bit..i feel so luan..

i juz hope to tahan till march..afterwhich i can take a super long break..

as for now..i think i shld guo yi tian n suan yi tian..most probably slackin as i go along ba..

to end off my post..it's tis chunk of chinese words..i dun wan to run away from my empty life..maybe e feelings r too familiar tat they r all gone..n u dun know how much i wish tat my life has some colours;any colour will do..n i m going round in circles..finally being able to say i love u..n with a little spark comes a fire..

我不再逃空虚日子

这一路都在熬

也许心情就是熟能生巧

你绝对想不到我多渴望

让生活染上一些颜料

是红橙黄或蓝靛紫都好

一圈一圈的围绕

终于能自在的坦承说爱你

火一点就燃烧

.:.ohya,e last 2 points doesnt really apply to my feelings..but since it's part of e chorus,i will juz add it in there le..