there r so many doubts runnin thru my head..so many fears..
deep within me,there's sth tat tells me to slack n not care bout anythin..
afterall,wat do i get from all e commitment?
indefinable physical and emotional pain..
but no matter how much i try to slack like siao..to not care..it somehow wont work..my heart still cares for my commitment..
like i intend for my prayer ministry,i m thinkin of juz stoppin e s3 prayer duty here..coz it's so hard gettin them to say..i m juz tired..even some other ppl already give up le..wat's e point of me continuin on.
then for music ministry,i will juz hand over everythin to marianne..hopin tat it'll be alright..
for interact,doin things to e minimum n pushin to e last minute..
n for legion,closin down e whole cca..
i keep wonderin n wonderin if comin to stc was e right choice or not..i noe i shld not be doin tis..but i cant help questionin mother mary..cant help questionin god..
u were e one who blessed me with such results for PSLE..blessed me with a passion for mother mary..yet y muz u be e one to stop me from my dreams..to give me nightmare in s1..let me experience endless pain at e beginnin..n indefinable n everlastin pain throughout my whole of s2,esp at e end of my s2 yr n made me see some truth which i nv ever wan to know,nv ever wan to see..n when i made tat choice at e end of s2,n unsure if it was right..u give me a glimpse of hope n took it away from me at e start of s3..wat's e meanin of all tis..i m really very tired..very sick of all tis already..
i wld thank u once more if u could do me one favour-take away my life..it's pretty meaningless i find..coz i also dun noe when i m headin..i hope tis road of exams juz runs on..but i noe it's impossible..but i noe it's possible for u to take away my life..
2moro's some rite of invitation thing for confirmation..i m like juz goin for e sake of goin..but frankly,there's tis part of me who feel like givin up e religion due to e great emotional n physical pain inflicted on me..
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