Thoughts.

Written at Sunday, November 25, 2007 | back to top

i duno wat i wana do..

i regret goin..

i regret seein u..

u were forced n so wo shi wu nai..

ahh,wats e prob with me;y cant i tell jp earlier then i wld hav went earlier..

y muz my xin sui lai chao in nov n called her then to ask her..

nv did i think i had to return to curia..n now tat i went,i serisly regret..

i feel lost now;like theres sth missin..

when it seemed legion is really goin to close foreva,i really bu she de..(altho e curia pres said e curia officers will try to revive it)..

?!?!?!

tat kind of feelin..ahh,y m i experiencin it once more..

我感觉自己很懦夫；毕竟若我真的要的话，我是能再试多一次。

但我怕受伤。

i wanna try n open myself up to legion once more,but sumhow i cant do so..its lyk i feel it seems so superficial..

someone once ask me-will u die for god..i said ya..

so if ur willin to die for god,y is it u wont let urself suffer tis kind of pain when u noe dyin for god also means u hav to go thru pain..

if only someone or sth could juz show me wat to choose..or tell me wat to choose..

i admit,without you,i wont hav received abundant blessings..

but sometimes,i wonder,without you,will i not hav received so much tong ku as well..