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Written at Friday, January 4, 2008 | back to top

我不叫苏秀钰，我该是苏衰钰。

i used e very same line to start my post for e other blog..n since im feelin ex tired,i will juz cover e main part-e mass..

chris passed e cloths to gor-meh,but gor-meh said she didnt get..

n so i went back to tell lok-ness,so lok-ness called dp n told her bout it..n they decided to lay e altar table w/o e cloth..n i told lok-ness tat there was any communion cloth as well..n she said in an angry-pissed-off tone:nvm,juz lay e table..

n tis is e second time i heard it being said to me..

forget it..

when gor-meh came up,she saw e altar table n she start to lecture..wth..its a personal attack on me lah..

''i didnt receive any cloth....dun put e cloth in some plastic bag,put it in a proper bag..you have no respect for mass,you dun hav respect for urself.u r messy n untidy.i said i didnt wan u to do e altar''..

those r e words i will rmb for e rest of my life..n i will also hate u for e rest of myself..

i admit..im messy,im untidy..

but come to some stuff,i can b ex particular..

as in,i will take note of stuff..

werent u e one who said we cldnt leave e bag on e table n when michelle n i did it at e next mass,we placed it on an xtra chair..

werent u e one again who said warm water needs to b used for e communion..n again from then on,i'll make sure tat i bring a plastic cup n get warm water bfor i go up n help to prepare..

perhaps,to some extent i hav no respect for mass by smsin lots durin mass or juz not payin attention..but rmb,im bcomin cynical..n bsides,i make sure tat when im layin e altar table,i do it well with no distractions..

doesnt tis show tat to some degree,i do respect e mass?

n u said u didnt receive e cloth when a few ppl alrdy said they passed u e cloth..wat's so bad bout ownin up..

n u actually said u dun wan me to help in e altar?..oh im so sorry then..i admit as messy as i am,im blur as well..i forgot,cant i?..since apparently u forgot ur e one who brought home e cloth..

perhaps ur juz bearin a grude towards me for e fact tat u apologised to me e other time..eh,pls lah..its juz a sorry..we r humans n dun humans make mistakes..

还是你狗眼看人低..despise me coz of my outer messy-ness..c'mon lah..inner beauty's more impt than outer beauty..

U NOE WAT..I JUZ HATE YOU..N YOU..N YOU..

the three 'you' here are referrin to three different ppl..

first:gor-meh

second:lok-ness monster

third:all kind of priests

lokness monster,u heard her scold me n didnt stand up for me..forget it,its has been a long time tat i noe tat ur a coward..but u gave me tat kind of buay song yan guang at recess time..n tat's sth i'll hate you for ever,for e rest of my life..

priests..stop puttin up the act to b holy n stuff..if u wanna act,i can do a much better actin than u all..one moment,ur preachin how to b holy,lovin towards everyone arnd you n e next u cld b grumblin bout stuff,acceptin money n gifts from e sch..wat kind of rubbish r u talkin bout..

its no wonder tat e pharisees in e olden time nv practise wat they preach..

i guess modern-day-ones do e same old thin as e pharisees in e olden time..

mayb im bein sterotypical here..but i juz find all catholics r bout e same..all tis kind of ppl..perhaps,tis only extends to adults afterall how much will a child noe..

i really dun wan cont my life as a catholic..i juz dun wan turn out tis way..

perhaps e greatest irony will b is tat CATHOLIC t'chers n students r among e top in e most hated list in a CATHOLIC school..

thankful to my frens who comforted me n even made space to sit with u all or else i wld hav gone beng kui..i still cant blieve tat i juz breakdown in front of u all..hao xiu ah..i knew i was gonna bout to break down when she said all those n i was juz tryna ta-han..n e bEsT part is,chris tried to comfort me n all gor-meh cld say-she's in e wrong,u shldnt comfort her..

i noe she's damn wat..n i shldnt waste my energy listenin to her rubbish..but i feel damnit insulted lah..

n i looked like im kae..but there was some kind of sadness within me..so went to meet jeremy in e east..i noe its damnit last min lah>.<..

n he got jovi down de lor..

so hang arnd with them till bout like close to 8..n act,wanted to go jovi's house's playground..but i rather not lest i get him into trouble(i think im hai ren jing)..

n at least he's much nicer or shld i say a gentleman..he gave me $$ to cab home..thanks mann..ohya guys,thanks for being able to meet..it really helped me a lot..

but i decided i shall save hard to return e money..

ohmann,i gotta save for so many stuff lah..