Thoughts.

Written at Sunday, March 2, 2008 | back to top

went to touch up e blogskin..n i hope eveythin is alright..

hmm,life feels ex screwed up..

e biggest part of tat comes from religion..

8 months le..n yet its still there..

ohmann,u noe wat i hope..

i hope tat there's a wheel of time n i will run straight up to it..n turn it way back when i was twelve n choose nv to go STC,nv to choose LEGION..

or i hope der's tis big giant creature tat can literally pull me out of e situation tat im in n place me somewhere else..

*slap*,i serisly gotta tell myself to face reality mann..i was juz in my own fairytale world-a world of my imagination..

its juz gradually dawns on me that perhaps im so cynical towards catholicism is purely a way of covering up my fears n hurts..

i admit,i noe,im someone who has lots of fear(spoken n unspoken within me)..and after those incidents i went thru,who wouldnt xperience hurt..

n i wanted so badly to run away from tis whole situation,not to hav any encounter with any catholics anymore n to like'protect'myself from ever gettin hurt again..

ohmann,i muz serisly START prayin to ask for strength n to find my way out of tis..

i juz feel like i come to a standstill,be it sprituality,socially or acadmically..