Thoughts.

Written at Wednesday, March 5, 2008 | back to top

yipeee..blogskin finaly edited and kae..juz tat e navigations r serisly harder to find..

hmm,today was e first day of efl..n had a few lil emo periods..

i really wonder to myself when r those periods of god experiences..

was that with u?

or is it simply during my exam time?

or perhaps it wasnt so much so with god but rather with mother mary..

but those felt more like heart-aching moments..

and during e 'prayer ritual',my cynicsm towards catholicism still cant decrease..

altho my frequency of prayer has really increased but dun quite noe why e mindset juz remains..

n it sucks more than those feelings of missin..

perhaps like jonathan,i need two yrs to recover from it..

mayb even more n total despair stage,here i come..

i guess im serisly turnin crazy..

hmm,but recently im also havin quite a no of thinkin towards why god n mother mary lemme go thru such stuff..

coz e thing with me is tat i will say tat im willing to die for god n even mother mary..

afterall,death is like a one time thing n e pain one needs to suffer isnt prolonged..

but death no matter wat is a suffering..if im willing to suffer for god in terms of death,why cant i suffer for him in terms of living death..

ohmann,i suddenly realise he told me sth similar bfor;/..

anw,i realised my lit is dyin..it serisly sucks now lah*sob*..i dun feel like studyin for lit anymore mann..

erm,tis part here is for max..aiyah,he wan me to help him by intro-ing ppl to him..and i duno who to intro..he shld might as well juz ask his guy frens to help him intro coz imo,i bet his guy frens noe more ppl..

and i realise today tat yh's shyXD..