Thoughts.

Written at Wednesday, February 25, 2009 | back to top

i.got.into.cj.interact..

but i dun feel good..i juz dun feel happy..

i noe im one of e more fortunate ones..but der's sth missin..

anw,went for ash wed mass tis morn..

that's e best part of being in a catholic sch-e sch will always hold e masses of obligationXD..

and sumhow,tat kind of feelin dun feel so sucky now..i even feel bad not rendering my service for god..

i had really been too idealistic in e past..and i guess to a certain extent,im overly idealistic bout tis interact club..

or is it i expect too much since its my dream to join cj interact?..

life is serisly not only a bed of roses..it is oso full of ironies..

i wanted so badly to do pure hist at sec 2 n i can vividly rmb how devastated i was when i cldnt do so,not even as a private candidate..

i nv like lit..in fact i hated it..but i had no choice n took pure lit..

at e end of e day,it was a diff story..

i had always dream of pursuin hist at a higher level..

yet when im doin hist at h2 now,im feelin totally devastated..
well,i guess e same goes for cca huh..

juz like legion,perhaps because of qian yi mo hua,i was sayin rosary etc..and lom appealed to me greatly..

n i had oso dream of joinin lom when i go sec sch..

there's no way to deny tat lom initially was flawless,but when all those stuff came in,it was nothin but horrible..another irony again?>

i suddenly duno wat cca to chooseT.T

nexus reach its quota

interact accepted me but i nv sign e list of confirmed members;/

and im a bit worried bout svdp..wat if i dun like?wat if?....and der's tis sense of awkwardness..